Segundo Día

I have never felt so alone in my entire life. I’ve never cried so much. I’ve never wanted to be in Grand Rapids so badly.

I love my host family. They are so great. They make sure that I feel like I am another daughter. The thing is, right now, all I want is my own family, my SpringHill family, my Calvin family… and I don’t have them. It’s so hard.

I’m just really overwhelmed right now. I feel like I don’t know enough Spanish. I can communicate, but it takes awhile and I’m just not good at it. (But I am starting to think in Spanish again because as I’m typing this I keep starting to type the words in Spanish, but then translate to English.)

Please pray for me. I am exhausted and I don’t want to be here. I just want to go home. I feel like this is too hard and I just can’t do it. Pray that these feelings will pass and that I will feel what I know in my head: that this will be a great semester and that this is where God wants me to be right now. Please also pray for encouragement, peace, confidence, and comfort.

I love you all.